I am so super excited!
Just before the holidays, I received a recommendation to contact a speech center here in town.
They aren't very well known, at least to my medical providers.
A frustration all within itself. But I keep reminding myself God's timing is perfect and to trust in His timing.
Today, my first appointment.
I had spoken to them on the phone.
Kind people. Compassionate people.
Again no promises.
Vision therapy has gone as far as it can for now.
My vision issues can continue to get better on their own and I have exercises to continue and one more follow up appointment.
However, I am still slow and the thought is it is an issue with processing.
I have testing results that concur.
So... I called.
Because insurance is the way it is.
They must have tests to prove I can hear and I don't have a hearing problem, that is what we did today.
Perfectly good hearing! In all the normal ranges.
One of the best parts about today, is what I would normally shed tears over.
Life has been rough the last couple of weeks. Worn down and exhausted, by the time I was called for testing, my speech was declining and just short of a train wreck.
God's timing is perfect. He knew how life was going to roll. He knew I would struggle.
He provided the perfect opening in the schedules for this appointment to happen.
Those doing my hearing tests heard my speech.
The speech specialist I spoke to on the phone came by to introduce herself.
She was able to hear my speech.
The best part was no one was alarmed or upset.
They weren't frustrated or angry.
They didn't talk down to me.
Didn't get frustrated.
They were kind and interested and encouraging.
What triggers? What helps?
Explaining, I live life in such a way to minimize issues as much as possible, but I can't prevent sick kids, crazy upside down days or weeks or noisy stores.
It was so good to have my speech problems in a setting where I just might be able to find help.
As I struggled through my morning and reflected as I was driving, I just kept saying thank you God for orchestrating the timing. He didn't take my speech. Nor did He create the chaos of life this week. But He knew what things would happen and I do believe He directed my steps and phone calls to provide this appointment on this particular morning. I feel blessed. I can't "force" my speech to decline. Nor do I want to. I kind of like communicating and having as few limitations as possible. And He knew that. He just loving prompted me and led me to this day.
So, today I had no anxiety or embarrassment because of my speech.
I rested in my God's love for me, the acceptance and kindness of the people around me.
We looked at the calendar and scheduled my "torture" appointment. The testing to challenge me as much as possible to document my struggles.
God was even in that, because the only way for me to get in sooner than later was for another "appointment" who is a creature of habit to willingly swap days for her appointment. She is an ALWAYS goes on a Tuesday kind of person. But not this time. Done. Piece of cake. She swapped days. How does one explain that, except God does move, work and open doors.
So sooner than later, I will be put through a rigorous testing of auditory processing.
Who knew they had created a way to test people to see how well they handle being in a noisy mall?
But they can. Among other things I am told.
Supposedly there are things that can be done to help and improve how one processes all that noisy input!
When asked what I would like to achieve, it is always the same.
Getting divorced and facing the reality I will need to go back to work at some point. The questions are: What kind of job can I do? The reality of knowing I can lose my speech at any given moment when my brain receives too much stimulation leaves me asking how can I work with that kind of unpredictability? Who would even want to hire me? There are so many other factors or triggers I can't control or do anything about. But is there something that can be done to improve my tolerance to stimulation? Is there something that can be done to improve the speed I process information? I know God will walk with me. He will sustain me. For now, we are exploring these options and learning some more new things.
Exciting new stuff on the horizon.
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